It has been just over a year since I opened my blog. A year since I opened my heart onto 'paper' and let all the thoughts and feelings out. And my goodness, what a year it has been. I almost don't know where to start... I guess I'll remind you of who I am, I …
So please, just give me something for the pain...And I want youOh my god, I want youTo see me in this stateAnd I want youFill your sleep and haunt youTo see the mess you've madeYou've madeAnd I want youAnd all my dreams are no useWhen I am wide awakeAnd I want toBelieve I haven't lost …
Continue reading Maybe I’m restless, a manic depressive. Or maybe I need someone, or maybe not…
WooooaaahhhhhGot to learn to let it go. Grief, what a horrible beast you are. At least that is what I have thought for the nearly 10 years I have had to face you. Before my Dad Steve passed away I was happily sailing through life without too many cares in the world. I had just …
Continue reading I think it’s time to practice what I preach, exorcise the demons inside me…
What a whirlwind of a world we are living in at the moment. I do not even know where to start with what has happened in my life since my last post.. Back in September?!? I have sat down and tried to write something for so long and words have failed me. So why now? …
I'm so used to being in the wrong, I'm tired of caring. Loving never gave me a home, so I'll sit here in the silence. Do you know how hard it is to live, when every inch of your entire being, your mind and body is just fucked, exhausted and done. I question myself everyday, …
She would always tell herself she could do this She would use no help it would be just fine But when it got hard she would lose her focus So take my hand and we'll be alright... What does suicide look like? Does it look like a person crying in the corner, unable to function? …
I know how to make mistakes Wasn't grown enough to fake them Everybody makes mistakes Do we live and learn to brave them? Writing, to some, does not come easy. To me, it comes perhaps a little too easy. Some would most probably say or agree, I talk too much. Generally, speaking about nothing of …
Continue reading Do you like walking in the rain? When you think of love, do you think of pain…?
'Cause I am the one, I rule my world Nobody rule my destiny 'Cause you are the one, you rule your world No bad man own your destiny It is so easy to forget that you are in control of your own life, your own actions, your own destiny. Don't panic, I'm nowhere near having …
I know we've all got our problems And it's a blessing that we made it here so far If you lay here in these arms tonight I promise I promise to take you, take you as you are... Well, firstly I can only apologise for the epic silence on here. In short, I have been …
Continue reading Who do you think you are? Dreaming ’bout being a big star…
Day old, day old, day old Day old, day old, day old, Day old, day old, day old, blues.. Kings of Leon - Day Old Blues Right now, it is 6.30pm and I am sat in bed;crying. Why? I myself don't really know. I had a seemingly lovely weekend. A lovely day today, it's snowing …
Continue reading Low and behold things are killing me, Silly expectations of a dream…
Being Becka 